The Hardest Thing

Try to think of the hardest thing that you've ever done.

Was it ending a relationship? Starting something new? A class? A job?

What about it made it so difficult?

For most of us, the most difficult times in our lives are when we have no control.

As Christians we "know" that God is taking care of us and has a plan and ultimately His way is better and giving Him control is the best way to handle any situation. Yet we still try to control our own lives.

"The world has yet to see what God can do with and for and through and in and by the man who is fully and wholly consecrated to Him." -D.L. Moody

The reason the world hasn't seen what God can do with a man who is fully and wholly consecrated to Him is because we still try to take control. We still seek after our own desires.

Right now I am raising support to go to Africa for the next two years. I can honestly say it's the hardest thing I've ever done. Not the going part. That part isn't that bad. It's the contacting people to try and raise support part. The part that I have no control over. I can't make people understand the importance of what I'm doing or even give me money. I can't even make people pick up the phone when I call. After next week, I'll be half way through the time I have to raise my support. I may have half of my support raised, but I feel like I'm running out of people to talk to. Even on good weeks I feel like I spend most of the week stressed out or worrying that I'm not going to get enough people.

I honestly have no idea where the money is going to come from. I am trying to trust that God is going to provide. I think the reason it's hard is that I don't fully believe in God's provision. I've been telling myself all the time that it's not about the money. It's about the work that God is doing. I might not even believe that. I need a big change.

Because of His grace and for His glory.