Relationships

So I think a majority of my angst has resulted from my relationships. I know I'm not the most out going guy, but it at least feels like people treat me differently all the time. I look at people and how they act and what they do or say around other people and I wonder why they don't act like that around me. It's really frustrating especially now that I'm trying to connect more with people.

On another somewhat similar note, I found out recently that the last 4 girls that I really liked are all dating someone else. I dated some of them didn't do anything with others, and I don't want them back, but it is a little difficult to see them move on and be happy with someone else while I'm still in the same place. It's not like I have an overwhelming desire to be in a relationship, and it's not that I'm sad I'm not in a relationship, and think it will solve everything, but I don't really know how else to describe it. I think I'm completely fine being single, but maybe not fine with other people being in relationships.

So I may very well end up in North Africa for at least the next year. I applied to Go Corps and they set me up with Campus Crusade for Christ and and internship in North Africa. The only probably is they want to make a decision by April 1st, but I haven't heard from them since spring break. It has me worried. If I get this internship I think I'd be totally ready to graduate even though I'd still have a lot to do between now and August(when I'd leave).

I think that's it for now.