How often do we think about what we sing when we worship God?
Do we really mean it?
Do we even understand what we're singing?
This really troubles me. A lot of times when I sing worship songs or in general when I am confronted by God I get pretty emotional. Especially in corporate worship. Sometimes I'll just sit there and cry, and sometimes people ask me what's wrong, but there usually isn't something "wrong". Sometimes I'm upset because I'm thinking about how poorly I treat God. Sometimes I am overwhelmed with His love. Sometimes I feel like God is really far away and the words that are being sung aren't true.
I wonder why more people don't get emotional when they worship. I understand that people are different and so they worship differently, but I rarely see anyone start crying when they worship God. Sometimes in corporate worship I just stand there and look around and wonder is people really understand what they are singing. What they're asking God. And if they really want it. Do you really want to be refined in fire? Are you really sorry for turning worship into something that isn't about God? Do you really want to be changed from the inside out?
What does any of that even mean?
What does it feel like to be refined by God? Can anyone tell me?
I certainly don't think it is an enjoyable process.
Do we really long for brokenness?
If we do then why do we think it unjust of God to let people suffer or to put us into situations where we are hurt or feel far from Him?
I feel like I'm going through a lot of that kind of stuff right now. I'm not really sure what's going on, but I hope God is working out His will in me. Two of my biggest faults are sometimes I care too much about people and I don't know how to take care of myself. It's easier for me to deal with other people's problems rather than my own.
There's a friend of mine who, for whatever reason, God has set in a special place in my heart. I would do anything for her. And When I find out she's struggling with something or is just feeling down I become broken for her. It ruins my day. Not in anyway that i feel mad about or would blame her for, but I can't enjoy things the way I normally would. Many times I can't even think of anything else. I get depressed. Not because of anything happening to me, but because of what she is going through. Sometimes I feel like a barely know her and yet I feel this way. I have yet to figure out why, but there is no doubt in my mind that God has a reason for it.
"Hosanna"
I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest
I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I walk from earth into
Eternity
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest
Hosanna in the highest
1 comment:
I know how you feel about worship - sometimes I get frustrated with that too but then I remember that there are days when I don't feel like crying. I think that worship can make us realize how messed up we really are but it can also be a time of joy because He has redeemed us! PS I hope you're having a good Saturday (hopefully you're still sleeping).
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