Service Tax

Everything has its price. Even if you're doing something good, it's going to cost you something. The question how much are you willing to pay to do or get something, and what happens when the price is too high?

Lately I've been in a spiritual funk. I haven't been doing regular devotions. I haven't felt really good about anything. I just feel like crap, and I think a big part of the reason why I feel that way is because of my role in ACF. I am so concerned with the needs of the church and what I can do to meet those needs that I ignore my own needs. Is it possible to give too much? Should I be willing to sacrifice my own spiritual growth for the growth and development of the church? I shouldn't have, but if I had to choose one should I choose the church? I haven't learned how to maintain both.

That's one reason why the sabbath is so important. We need that time to step back, recharge, and if need be get focused back on God. That's what I've lost. ACF is no longer a place where I can come to make myself right with God. It no longer is part of my sabbath because I have responsibilities at ACF that need to be taken care of, and I haven't figured out how to replace that. A friend of mine said today that we need to just let God do things instead of us trying to do things, but that's not who I am. God uses us to accomplish things, and if something needs to be done, I'll do it. With so many things going on and so much to get done staying relaxed and calm is stressful. It's not that I'm trying to do everything by myself,maybe I am, but when other people at ACF can't or won't do something it usually falls to me because I'm wiling to do it. Maybe I should say no to more things.

I'm going to disappear for the next week and try to get back on track.

Because of his grace and for his glory.