Right but Wrong

I just realized how long it's been since I've last posted. It's not like there hasn't been anything going on. Tons of things have gone on/are going on. I've just either been at camp without a computer or not really wanting to write. Anyways I'm writing now.

Camp has been incredible this summer. God has really moved in big ways, and has revealed more about himself to me. Sometimes I think God likes showing off.

One of the things he's shown me is how when I'm in tune with God and pursuing him with everything I am then often my desires coincide with his will. I'll use a couple examples to explain a little, and let you know what's been going on the past month.

First, I want to go back to Africa, probably more than anything else, but I had no clue how or when. Well I still don't know how or when, but when I've had the chance to slow down and listen for God he's been pulling my heart towards Africa. Several times I've had to leave my cabin because God was just breaking my heart over everything that's going on over there, and I didn't want my campers to think anything was wrong because I was crying.

I don't want to go back to Africa to try to fix everything over there. I want to go because of how close to God I was there and the love for the people I've interacted with there, the love that God has placed within me. God breaking my heart over the poverty and corruption and war in Africa, I believe, was a sign that he wants me there. Maybe not now, but soon.

By now your probably thinking what "Right but Wrong" has to do with anything I'm writing about. It's been my experience recently that when we think we know what God has planned for us we may be right , but we may also be wrong. God may want us at the college we're at. He may want us to give up everything we have and move to a third world country, but we probably think he plans that for us for some reason, but he has another reason, another purpose in mind.

Take Jesus for example. A lot of people thought he was some political leader and king coming to overthrow the roman empire and reestablish the Jewish kingdom. They were right, but they were also wrong.

God may want me to go back to Africa, but he may not want me to go back to Malawi. I feel like I'm being called there for a long period of time. Like a couple years, but it may be longer or shorter, and I have no clue as to what God's specific purpose for me there is.

I guess I'm kind of rambling and not tying my thoughts together very well, but I want to share one more thing.

I've really struggled with whether it's in God's plan for me to have a wife, or even if I want to have a wife, but God placed a girl in my life. Okay so we'll probably never get married or even date, but she helped show me why marriage is so important and why I hope it's part of his plan for me.

One night a group of people from camp were getting together to watch a movie outside with a projector and screen. So we all got our sleeping bags , and everything setup, but we couldn't get it to work, so we just hung out and talked, I spent several hours just talking with her, the girl I was talking about before. It was amazing. Just being able to lay there and talk and share our hearts. That's all I want from marriage. To be totally open and insecure with another person, but I don't need a wife for that. I've always felt like I don't need a wife or many times even want one. I may be right, but I'm more than likely also wrong. While some people never marry there is a need placed within us to have interaction and deep meaningful connections with other people. God didn't create us to be alone. More to come later.

Because of his grace and for his glory.